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For three days now I have been trying to write a new journal, and for three days I have come up short. Sad really;  when there is so much I could talk about, so much to say.  So much I want to say, but in the end when faced with that infernal flashing line I am henceforth rendered useless.  This distresses me; greatly might I add. It's not just in writing either; no, even when faced with a day to day conversation I have a voice inside me yelling at the top of it's lungs in a way I will never be able, to tell the people next to me that I love them, and when I do manage it I am filled with the feeling that they doubt it. Now I have never bee

Not that many people read my journals, But I feel like talking, so I resort to this. First off! HAPPY NEW YEAR! Good bye 2009! I'm happy to see this decade end, not that I hated it( THAT MUCH ), but I wanna see whats next. The reasons I might hate this decade are plentiful, so much so that everyone would cringe reading them due to the whole self-pity ness of it all. But, the 3 reasons I love it, I wanna share. 1.) The people, while many people walked in and out of my life this decade, a few stayed. Like; ~AppleCherry (https://www.deviantart.com/applecherry) You are such a doll, your the one who gets the brunt of all my complaining, really, for it all you deserve a medal. Yo

Okay, personally, I can't bring myself hate any ideology. Dislike and get disgusted by, Yes but hate no. You can dress up like Marie Antoinette and screw ducks whilst sing an SS waffen drinking song for all I care, because there's nothing I can say nor do, so why try? But lately I have now seen 3 Neo-Nazi's in 2 weeks, and only one was the calm type, the other two were the screaming, angry, poorly educated ones. That's all fine and dandy...then people I know start bringing Hitler/Genocide jokes...and then, the cream of the crop, A family member who shall remain nameless in some attempt at saving face,(we shall call him FM) Decided he will 'sp